I drew a butterfly today.

Stream of consciousness:a narrative mode that seeks to portray an individual's point of view by giving the written equivalent of the character's thought processes, either in a loose interior monologue, or in connection to his or her actions. 

And now for a little bit of that, cause I have a lot going on in the noggin so i might as well just type the thought process.

WARNING this may be a bit ridiculous, not make sense and cause you to think of me as more crazy than before:

I honestly want to write a good blog about something meaningful doesnt seem like its going to happen now, or maybe it will whatver. I am watching this gears of war thing and its kind of dumb and makes me want to blagh, wtf is blagh i dunno, but im just realizing this is going to suck to read, like i wont be putting periods unless i think of periods like. and. haha oh wow. I Want to hug everyone, I've had crappy hugs for the past few months. No good ones, sry if your reading this and thought u gave me a good hug. it wasnt that it was bad, it just wasnt epic and i need an epic hug. but yeah dogs, dont know where that came from, actually i do but i prefer not to talk about it cause, well its is pointless and non of ur business, i want weimaraners and I know until i am like 40 and have the means to own one and have money to raise a dog, i wont have one, i was just going to type creature. my eyes are tearing up. Im not crying i just yawn like every two seconds. I dont want to grow up Im a toys r us kid, haaha i really dont right now, i know i am but its scary to grow up, to get older closer to the acceptable age where people think its ok for u to not be on your own. I am typing on AIM and typing here so there are breaks, you know whats annoying at work if i say im going on break it means a 15 not a fuggin hour break. to go on an hour break i have to say im going to lunch. what if my lunch is at 5 or 6 thats a dinner, not a fuggin lunch, haha silly silly orange place, i love orangess btw not the color so much anymore but def the fruit. not the juice though... weird. I dont like anyone at the moment, well not really, where the hell is that coming from oh wait yeah i know haha but yeah um i dont, usually im lying to myself, but i honestly can say no one, well maybe not completely but yeah. I think I am not interesting enough... blah so sad whateva...Whateva like that lil girl on the youtube vid haha. WTF am I talking about. I just fell alseep alittle, why am i still writing. haha ill stop I love you all goodnight.  Wait that was dumb and boring, whatev a more well worded one will come and whatev this is my page haha.

:)

No Parking...

Hello Ladies and Gents, Hopefully your Thanksgiving was Splendiforous, including mucho comida, family fun, and rest. 

Now I'm sorry to do a complete theme change but I can not, not talk about todays black friday. I am a bit ashamed, how people can create the idea in their heads that materialistic items are worth, breaking down a door and trampling over someone without even noticing... Here's the story, in case you dont know what im talking about. Honestly, I like every person love a good buy, but there is nothing on this planet that would cause me to bulldoze my way through a store. If you did go out on black friday hopefully you were safe, and got the deals you wanted. I didn't want to be a drag, but honestly I couldn't help but write about this. It just seems so sad to me that materialistic items have become so important to people. They are items, they will one day break, become useless, when we die no one will remember us for the computer we bought or the shoes we once had. They are items, replaceable and are with you for the moment.

Anyway, Next blog will be upbeat and less morbid. :) 

Ciao for now my dears.

Turducken

Thanksgiving, A day pretty much chocked up to cooking and eating the biggest turkey you can find, cooking your favorite side dishes and overeating to the point of inflation. You would have consumed enough food to conceive a food baby, and wobble to a television or lay down for a Thanksgiving nap. Depending on your tradition, get togethers are a plenty , and sitting around eating massive amounts of food is a must, with perhaps a side dish of recollecting what you are thankful for , or maybe you don't do anything like that. :P Either way most stores are closed so your in for the day. Tomorrow my friends the worst day in the history of retail stores strikes... BLACK FRIDAY, people sneak out in the night with their Redbulls and their long lists of things, and perhaps all the money they have been saving for months, they are ready to get the sales of their LIVES!! TOWELS FOR 60 cents! TV's for 1 dollar! oh my gosh! hehehe. I on the other hand will be working, tailoring to the black friday fiends that wait all year to get everything discounted and cause us cashiers to wake up at 2 or 3 am Blagh! 

And now to be semi-stereotypical, What I am thankful for: (some serious, some ridiculous)

• Family and Friends- Honestly as cheese-tastic as this is I have to honestly give thanks to the people who help me through my insanity.
• Clean water, Fresh food, the ability to live more comfortable than most people on this planet- Too many times we take for granted the water that pours from our faucet, gas stations and the endless food in supermarkets.
• Breathing- Taking it back to basics here, simply to breathe is enough for me. 
• Pencils and Pens- I mean honestly why wouldn't I be thankful for these so simple yet routed in everything we do, If we didn't have them where would we be today lol, no where.
• Makeup- Because really Im not shallow but its fun and covers le blemishes.
• Animals- They keep life interesting. without them we would be..nay I would be lost :P
• Color-Living in a monochrome would be like Pleasantville, not so pleasant, just plain.
• Airplanes, Boats, and Cars-without them travel would take incredibly long and trips to Italia, Brasil, Australia, and Greece would be... impossible.
• Languages- they make those getaways much mo bettah. 

Anyway Happy Thanksgiving! Til next Time...

Lost in Translation...

This Started out as a blog I would write en español pero ahora, it doesnt look like that will happen. Instead un poco de español y un blog en Spanglish. Enjoy!

"Cuenta que hace mucho, mucho tiempo, en el reino subterráneo, donde no existe la mentira ni el dolor, vivia una princesa que soñaba con el mundo de los humanos. Soñaba con el ciel azul, la brisa suave, y el brillante sol. Un día, la princesa escapó.Una vez en la exterior, la luz del sol la cegó y borró de su memoria cual quier indijio del pasado. La princesa olvidó quién era, de donde venia. Su cuerpo sufrió frío, enfermedad, y dolor. Y al correr de los años murió.Sin embargo, su padre, el rey, sabía que el alma de las princesas regresaria, quizás en otro cuerpo, en otro tiempo, en otra lugar. Y él la esperaría, hastas ultimo aliento , hasta que el mundo dejar a de girar..."

- El Laberinto del Fauno

Un poco de Pan's for ya... cause I think its probably one of the most beautifully written/sounding pieces de literatura en un pelicula.

Anyways mi amors, I am done here Adios y hablamos mas tarde... Well i'll write you'll read, almost like talking, but not. :)

And for all you non spanish speakers here it is in english:

A long time ago, in the underground realm, where there are no lies or pain, there lived a Princess who dreamed of the human world. She dreamed of blue skies, soft breeze, and sunshine. One day, eluding her keepers, the Princess escaped. Once outside, the brightness blinded her and erased every trace of the past from her memory. She forgot who she was and where she came from. Her body suffered cold, sickness, and pain. Eventually, she died. However, her father, the King, always knew that the Princess' soul would return, perhaps in another body, in another place, at another time. And he would wait for her, until he drew his last breath, until the world stopped turning... 

Sounds better in Español :)

Yawn...

I can honestly and without hesitation say I am 100% tired. Pooped, drained, drowsy, run-down, burned out y cansada. Not just physically, actually I am more tired mentally than I am physically. I just haven't had much time to include enjoyment and relaxation into my daily routine. I have been working for a year and 2 months straight... I mean honestly even my summer was full of work, Pre-preparation for the program, the Program and then post-work, then back to work here. Right now a bed with a BIG TV in front of it, my favorite food, and no schedule or worrying about a schedule for at least a week sounds good to me. INCLUDE some sun, pool, and a good book and that would be enough for me to re-charge the batteries. 

edit: Eu preciso dumas férias... (or however you say it, Changed it cause la pgymy estas mas inteligente que yo.)

un mes

(couldn't get rid of the words sorry. At least its a tad educational)

It's been a Month since I started writing in this blog. It's been therapeutic for me and allows me to blab about nonsense to more than one of you at the same time. 

The downside to this blog, everything seems blog worthy. I think about topics, and think they will be compelling... they are not. :P

Thanks for reading! 

Swallowed in the Sea...

  I meditated today. I'd say it was 70% successful, I was looking for a little bit of time to myself and to reconnect with that person I knew was floating around in there somewhere. I focused on breathing and not focusing if that makes any sense. It was actually pretty difficult, for the 10 minutes I meditated, there was about 2 min of actual real meditation, which is all I could really ask for since it takes practice and is pretty difficult to do. It was a quiet time, even though it might not have been by the book meditation, I was able to just sit and when I was thinking, it was about myself, and I dont think a lot of people get the chance to do that. To think about and reflect about yourself. I mean it seems like a selfish statement, but to be honest it has to happen. The Life you are living is your own, no one elses so to be able to actually focus on your own life, not the stuff you do that you think makes up who you are, but the being you are. It's rare and not a frequent practice. To just be in the moment.

And so my friends, as another big Family Holiday is just around the corner, I hope that you all can reflect on the year and the positive that has happened in your life. To be thankful for the experiences bad or good, that have happened to create a newer more knowledgeable person. To celebrate being where you are, being with people you love, and if nothing else just the simple fact that you are Alive.