Open all the windows

"If I could I would keep this feeling in a plastic jar"

Frio

After a long 24 hour drive from Florida to Connecticut the only word that comes to mind, (which Im not surprised about) is COLD. I am freezing I havent had a New England full blown winter in about 1.5 to 2 years. So needless to say Im transforming back from my Floridian blood to my Ct Blood.

( I wrote this as soon as I got in last night, nothing more to say. I haven't seen any of my lovelies, soon soon, NO PICTURE FOR TODAY aghhhh the world will end hehe pce)

Bookcovers and Benadryl

Pretty much I heard about the whole twilight craze, and thought blach! why do I want to read a book that seems so "Youth Adult" haha whatever that means. But yeah saw the movie pretty much fell in love with the fact that Edward Cullen is completely and awesomely perfecto. So I got the book. Its supposed to be for the roadtrip up north. I couldnt help it I had to read a chapter. Overall easy read, really good, i understand the craze now. I think I'll read another chapter. :P

One day

So yeah on my quest to get healthy and change my eating habits, I have been consuming more yogurt because it is a healthier snack plus its a good source of calcium and probiotics. I have been trying to get flavors that I know I'll enjoy, and most of the time I can't get yogurt with fruit in it, because i am regrettably allergic to fruit. blah Anyway to my point, today I had boston creme pie yogurt haha because I mean lets face it the idea seemed genius to me :P, pie in the form of yogurt. But what I have found is that all yogurt tastes pretty much the same. None of it is drastically different. The cherry yogurt I  had last night taste pretty much the same as my boston creme pie today. Any yogurt suggestions?? Just seems funny to me, I think im going to try and add granola or something to it. It'll probably just tastes like the same yogurt with granola then, blah. The funny thing is the pictures they put on the yogurt.

Hahaha ^ yeah..okay :P

Oh to be Gomez again :)

I'd say I'm wednesday at the moment. hehe :P

To more than one

You're Changing, becoming this person I don't really know (then again maybe I'm changing too).  A person I didn't see, a person I can't recognize. Your words less sincere, the conversations more dull, the topics forced and unentertaining. I'm tired of talking to a computer-like friend, the conversation like a boring volley of empty nothingness. I don't doubt the dry spells will disappear, but the sadness of talking to a person who seems to think my words are as dull as dry toast is making me hesitant to strike up conversation. Its always different versions of "hi, how are you?" and a random mash up of refrigerator magnet phrases. I talk to you about the weather which clearly means, excuse the clichéd pun we are headed towards stormy conditions. When we talk its as if the words coming out of my mouth are lost and drift away. I miss the randomness in our dialogue, the depth, the quotable phrases, the excited tone in your voice, and the realness. I miss you.

Spiralling

Alrighty and Now for a real blog :)

So to catch those of you who have no idea up, I have never been in a relationship. I don't actual care that I haven't and its not that I don't want to, its that I haven't put myself out there or opened myself up to even make this a possibility. My own fault, maybe, but its how I am I guess, I don't know when it'll happen for me and I kind of have come to terms with this. Im ok with it because I know most relationships that occur before ur 20 are bogus, even though some of those evolve into actual healthy relationships. But yeah I dont exactly know where this blog is going all I know is that I have come to realize that Im sort of ready. I am not looking but I am also not resisting the idea. After countless years of my grandparents asking me when they get to meet my boyfriend, or when he was going to come to dinner, or my mom trying to pry answers about my imaginary boyfriend, or laughing at my dad's attempt to discover whether I was straight or gay. Hahaha. Just because I dont have a boyfriend doesn't mean I'm gay. 

To be quite honest I was so sheltered in high school my true outgoing personality didn't emerge fully til my senior year in highschool which btw is too late and I was 12 paces behind everyone. But I guess I it doesn't matter we all travel at different speeds and experience different things in life. I think I was always worried about what people would think of my life, what people would say how they would react, enduring  certain life battles, from my mom getting M.S, to my parents splitting up, to my countless moves. My Life may be different and unconventional but I think now that I seem to accept it for what it is, I'm ready to let other people in.