Organic Starfish

Its the New Year!!!  2008 has come and gone and 2009 has just begun bringing with it the anticipation of a lot of fun and exciting things to come. As every year passes I usually spend the first day of January reflecting, usually it isnt planned it just seems to happen that way. Both bad and good race through my mind. The huge amount I have accomplished, but also the craziness that filled up my life that year. I can say 2008 was not my best year, but I also did, and evolved as a person, much more than i thought I would have.

Im not sure why we go through everything we go through but I know that everything that happens seem to happen for a reason. So although my living in Florida wasn't permanent it gave me a lot to be thankful for. 

• My Mother: Even though we may fight and not see eye to eye all the time she has quickly become one of the people in my life who seems to know who and how I am. I mean she knows what I like to wear, eat, say, watch, say, and pretty much a lot of stuff many people will never know. I am not afraid to talk to her and I can always count on her. Of course you may think she is my mom its her role to know these things and Im supposed to feel like this, well i didnt always and Im glad we grew closer. :)
• My Self confidence: Even though I need LOTS of work, I honestly have grown to realize that everyone else's opinion about me doesn't mean anything and isnt worth anything. Now the thing i need to tackle is my view of myself, and allowing people in, which im sure 2009 will cure :)
• My License: I thought i would never get it. ( i was nervous about driving in a parking lot, hehe)
• My Independence: This above all has made me happy, I made my own money, paid for my own things and drove my own car and accomplished more in a year than i ever would have if i stayed here. I became my own person. I dont know that I am exactly the person i was when I left. I dont need the same things I did, and I dont do, wear, talk, live the same way I did.For some they may have to learn who I am again, to some they always knew me and grew with me (u know who u are).

So although 2009 seems right now like it will be another trying year for me and still be super confusing I am ready for it and what it has to offer. All its ups and downs, all of its happy and hectic times because I know that they too will become part of my make up, part of who I am.