Adieu Adieu- *Work in Progress to be edited.

Dear Mr. BitterSweet,

Im sure there was one point in all of this,

where the words that spewed out of your mouth weren't complete cow fecal matter.

It scares me how quickly you were able to persuade me this was possible.

There is a spot in my heart that is still trying to convince myself that this is all part of it

and that some how things will return to being cool again.

You tell me not to worry and that you need time,

part of me believed you.

I'm afraid that a spec always will.

I dreamt about you last night.

You were like you were,

and everything was fine,

you told me things wouldn't be how they are

that it was all a misconstruction.

It was a creation of my perfect version of you.

I woke up and nervously laughed

I knew today would be the day I would have to get over you.

So today I'll focus on the negative and forget what you said,

Avoid British television and that seven-piece Irish American Celtic punk band I love so much.

I wish you well and hope you find what you are looking for,

Sincerely,

Me

underneath it all

Im happier these days. :) I've realized that even though Life is this never ending set of obstacles that you have to jump through and figure out, sometimes there's the space, the space to rest and just enjoy the Life you're living. So I've realized I have to enjoy the little moments. Taking everyday as it comes and realizing this is the only life you have, so just soak in what you have, and you'll find the beautiful little moments that you can turn to when the rest hits you.

I started to listen to a lot of No Doubt again. They are perfect sometimes :) enjoy.

No Doubt - New Music - More Music Videos

The Meadows

las mariposas ahora están aquí. (look for the * it's when I get them haha)

They weren't there before and I was like Oh snap, this is going to be good. But no as soon as I said they weren't, they were. Sorry If I am Blabbering. Anywhoo my loves, today is my last final. I am excited however, i still have 2 essays to write by monday. Im exhausted from work *and found out by saturday I will have 40 hrs for the week...So much for being a part timer. Mas dinero para Las Vegas! wooop. I feel wrong typing Las Vegas without having the rest of the sentence in spanish. hehe.

I feel like I'm getting less intelligent by the moment,* I think it's just cause I am tired and can't formulate sentences correctly so I end up blurting out things that either sound like I could be the long lost cousin of Yoda, or that I am in fact a 5 yr old trapped in an adult body. Yesterday I was chatting it up with someone and I definitely told him my brother "sort of had Diabetes.." I literally jumbled through my words and could not form a sentence that was worth being projected out of my mouth and into words by my wonderfully amazing vocal cords, I "Ummmed" and "Uhhhhed" way to much for one sentence * and after wanted to cross my arms wink my eyes and beam my self back to the beginning of that sentence," I dream of jeannie style". yeaaaaah, seriously Melisa. Thats when I knew I needed sleep and or a slap, both effective one less painful than the other :P

Well back to reading for English.

Oh yeah and I have been signing a lot at work when I'm bored to get the signs stuck, and i dont think anyone knows what I'm doing, I think they think I have an issue haha. *

And because its a lovely 46 seconds song:

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The Kiss

Basically, This painting is perfection, the pose, the colors, the composition and the basic feeling you get from it. It radiates bliss and both beings blend beautifully together. The golds are great and so is the fact that her foot popped up or is she kneeling? ehh either way, amazing <3

p.s- I want her dress...

Let the Dream begin

"The Phantom of the Opera is there...inside my mind"

* I was just thinking of this play and how it was the first Broadway play I ever went too...it was glorious :)  *

(Question: Is he trying to go in for a grab....lol)

Balsamic Vinegar Smellin' Dog

(Haha how much hairspray do you think she used to get her hair like that?)

Hola blog readers!

I am writing because frankly I am 1. bored and 2. I just made a homemade soap to wash my dog's and I am sort of proud of myself haha. NO more will I spend 10 dollars on a shampoo that makes my dog's smell like a vanilla cupcake,which in turn makes their backs a breeding ground for not so friendly and hypnotized bugs; or a bottle of glass cleaner, which is not so great when I'm on the couch trying to relax and cuddle with my friendly canines. Soooooo I opted for a more natural solution that frankly makes them smell like a salad, with a touch of the mango soap I used. hehe

Also, I got a Curling Iron and I'm about to try it out cause Im well just refer to number 1. in the previous paragraph.  I'll post pictures of me if they turn out good. If not then you will just have to picture it or cry. Im hoping you choose the first one. 

Edit: The hair turned out horribly... I got not one single curly... I need curl guidance. Thanks :)

OH! and I am late on this apparently, BUT , if you were a previous Degrassi Fan and liked Jimmy basically this will make you smile and if you have heard it thennnnn you'll jam and then smile. Anywho my lovelies adios til laterz.

I'll never bleed Orange.

Im at work typing this right now and I paranoid someone will come and see me typing. Haha just about the most risky thing I've done all week wooooooo. Sad.

I think I have had about enough of my job's music selection. Sometimes they surprise me with a little Dave Matthews band and some Coldplay which needless to say makes the 4 mintues of working during that time bliss. They even played "Dig" by Incubus the other day and I said out loud "NO WAY!", people looked at me I returned to my quiet self that has become Melisa at this job. No one knows my crazy side and i am not so sure I want them too just yet. I sort of want to surprise them and confuse the crap out of them.

Anywho, this will be another completely pointless blog, unless of course you find it amusing to read about me talking about the boring music selection at my job. If you do really enjoy it... message me we need to talk. hehe.

OH YEAH! i've got another thing to talk about that is completely crap and BS (isnt that the same thing? Yes, yes it is but I dont care :) so there). I found out today that I am the only "new" cashier that was duped into a low salary. This is why people shouldnt discuss their salaries at work. It makes the sorry people who got tricked into the same work, for less pay, PISSED. Basically people who have zero experience and have never worked for the company before are getting paid more than me. Nice, Thanks, I spent almost 1 1/2 years wearing this silly ass apron and I am not even eligible for a raise because of the "economy" YEAH OKAY. Yet somehow the economy was able to fund highschool kids who use their money for clothes and misc. items no problemo. I mean I am greatful I have a job,I am, and i won't complain out of principle, but somehow it doesnt seem right or correct that I am working so hard, and basically full time hours and yet im a part time associate; lets just say after my Vegas trip I will be acting as such. The perk of being a good associate is that they offered me a higher position, whether or not they go through with that is different, for now I will shut my mouth, smile, and continue to be me cause lets face it there is no point in having a bad attitude over crap you can't fix.

Anyway loves, the time is now 7:43 i have about an hour left on this shift then I am set free and I will be back tomorrow, Saturday and Sunday, work work working and soaking up all the awkward moments and trying to open up ;), til monday... my day off, well from work anyway not from school. Which ends soon WOOP! Good luck to all of you with your finals and final papers, and I hope this wasnt too boring.

Adios! (if you are reading this and there isn't any pictures, videos or extras its because I havent gotten home yet and havent been able to. Just visualize it in your mind )